Lily Chloe Evans Potter

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You know what's better than pie? JELLO. Whipped cream and Jello.

What flavor should I make first?

[Private to Sirius Black.]

I was just sipping my tea, and I was thinking about you. Where in Atlantis is Sirius Black? Are we going to have to play a scavenger hunt game to find you? Because I'm really talented at that, you know.

I would find you like *that*. We will forget the fact that I would have candy in my pocket that Padfoot could sniff a mile away.

But, in all seriousness, where/how are you?

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[Private to James.]

What's going on with you, love?

Is it about Dumbledore? I know it's hard for you to see him here, but you know that Harry adores you. There's no need to be scared that you are losing him. Dumbledore and him had a pretty tight relationship, and part of me is glad for that. Harry wouldn't have made it on his own.

That's not to say that I don't agree with you. Our little boy was turned into a soldier at 11, and that makes me more angry than anyone but you can imagine.

He should have had a childhood, and learned to love life. Instead, he was stuck with my abominable family and forced into a War.

All we can do is love him. We can be there when he falls. Beyond that - this relationship is going to take work. He's not...tiny anymore.

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If you were wondering...

I have gone absolutely, over the edge, crashing into the rocks belows LOOPY. Edit: And apparently I've forgotten even basic grammar.

I don't think I've swam this much in my life, but that goes without saying, doesn't it?

MY HAIR IS NEARING THAT ORANGE COLOR THAT CLOWNS HAVE!

I might cry.




And my James still isn't back yet.

I've been sleeping on the couch, you know? Because the bed...

Who wants cookies? I'm going to see Charlus, but I was wondering if anyone else wanted a cookie/brownie basket of random love?

...

Yeah.

I'm putting the quill down now.

If you need me, follow the annoyingly loud music.

Same show, different channel.

BOR-ING.

{Private.}

I had my lesson with Rowena, and I feel...calmer. Better than I have in ages, in fact. I spent the morning chasing Tuor (which, granted, isn't that hard since he is tiny and wobbly). He'll get faster as he gets older. I just want him to love playing.

And why is there an influx of Death Eaters and other unmentionables lately?

There will be no welcoming party, and they better sniff their tea before they take a sip!

Ohhh, I wonder if I have some of those nice (HIGHLY POISONOUS) cubes around? That would be great for tea. Nice flavoring, and the after effects are a real kick.

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I have Firewhiskey and a Mountain Lion cub.

Fear me!

Is the Potter madness airborne?

I think it must be, because...

I have...

I found...

Oh gods, just look at him already!

( Picture of... )

Yes, I know you're jealous. Isn't he perfect?

[ink spill]

Uh oh. The baby found...no...wait... [trailed off ink smear]

[added later] I have to say... My ability to attract cats (no matter the size, apparently) is interesting. Poor Padfoot.

[Private to Sirius Black - HEED IT!]

James has been patient with you.

He loves you immensely, but I fear his love clouds his logic.

You MAY have noticed that I have not given you a gift, and you will not get one until I have a nice talk with you.



It's enough. You've been in this slump for FAR too long.

Am I right in assuming you are staying with that mother of yours?



Sirius. Love. That is NOT healthy, and you are NOT at HOME! James and I are HOME. Harry is HOME. Remus is HOME.

You can care for her when YOU are mentally stable to do it.

If you ignore this message, I will march out and I will pull you back MYSELF.


Do you understand?

And before you ask what brought this on - it was ME waking up ALONE and realizing James was AWAY WITH YOU on YOUR BIRTHDAY! When I agreed for us to be together, I meant US, Sirius.

James is in shite too, if you must ask - but he did something to make up for it recently.

I'm tired of you running from us and hiding.

I will hunt you down and you DO NOT WANT ME cornering you. I may not be Pure, but I have one hell of a temper.
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( [Private to James.] )

I'm exhausted. Does anyone have any ideas on how I could distract myself from depressionthe dull throbbing of my brain trying to work too hard?

Yes, you can laugh. I wish I could.

{Private to James, Sirius & Remus.}

Everything's well.

I'm going back home.

Don't be hard on Harry.

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{Private - Warded.}

I can't believe he did that. Where did he learn...? No, I know where he did, but still. I promised myself that Harry would be shielded from all of that. He wasn't. I guess I was living in my self imposed fairytale. It's easy to do that when you haven't seen a person for years at a time.

I don't blame him. I see that James is upset at him, but there is so much we don't know about him. He's not the same infant that used to love unconditionally.

And, as stupid as it sounds, that hurts. Far more than any Cruciatus could.

{/}

{Private: Very Shaky Hex. Easily Broken.}

He's...gone.

I don't feel right in being distraught because...

We were...

I keep looking at this place, and remembering.

He came to save me. Even after I pushed him away, he never forgot me. He protected my son, defied his Lord, and...

Damn it. I'm...

There's NO ONE!

Tuney isn't here... As horrible as she was, she was my sister! Mum and Dad are gone... I always wished that I would get to see them again. They were so supportive of my powers.

I feel more alone than ever.

{/}

[Private to Severus]

Forgive me for eavesdropping, but I read your comments in Nymphadora's journal.

Are you alright?

It is strange that you would be upset at the same time as Remus. Hmmm. I'm onto something. I will figure it out.

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[Private to Sirius and James]

Something is biting at our dear Remus. Be supportive, take him places, distract his mind and feed him chocolate, yeah?

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Welcome, Nymphadora and Kingsley. <3

Gods above,

I have a confession to make.

( {Private - Serious Privacy Here, People. (Gods are able to see.)} )

Beyond said confession, I have a request to make.

Can I have them both?

Just for one bloody night so I can vent this... It's unbearable. Every time I see one of their handwritings or hear their voices, I feel like I'm overheated.



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[Private to Hermione Weasley]

Mrs. Weasley? Hermione? What would you rather I called you?


I think you know the problem that has arisen recently.

Disconcerting, isn't it?

We should talk.

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Minerva...

Can we talk too?

(Cue batting of eyelashes and bright smiles.)

Soooooo...

Did everyone make it through the night?

Any fatalities?

Do I need to make arrangements?

[Private to Charlus]

Are you okay? I mean... A lot has happened lately, and I want to check up on you.

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[Private to Sirius]

BLACK. We have to talk. Did you see this coming?

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Tragic really. Some of these ingredients aren't ready to be ingredients yet. I think I've just made myself sick.

Brilliant.

STOP WIGGLING!

[Private]

I don't know how to help James. On one hand, I know for a fact that his father loves him; but on the other, I understand how and why he feels betrayed. That's the problem with secrets. When all the people who could be affected are not told, foul emotions simmer under the surfaces. No secret is safe indefinitely. Whether we like it or not - it'll come out if it is pertinent enough.

I'm equally shocked to hear that Charlus cheated on Dorea with Pollux Black. Well, that too is in the past. But... Why did James ask ME if he thought Charlus loved Dorea? Honestly, if there was cheating going on, I don't see HOW Charlus could love Dorea. Love is about respect, and screwinghaving relations with someone else (man or woman) is cheating.

Still... He likes me. I'm flattered beyond belief.

Merlin, I wish I could've known Dorea better...

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As Severus said, I now am running the Apothecary. Any supplies or assistance that you need - please don't hesitate to contact me.

[Private to Family (Including Sirius, Remus and Severus.)]

I think that punishment is vastly overdone. Still, I don't think there is much we can do about it. We are but mere mortals, and as such - there is very little we can do to counteract their...anger.

Grin and bear it, I say.

It's the best we can do until further notice.

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[Private to James]

I think I've discovered my gift.

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( [Private - Cut for Length.] )

[Private to James]

Where are you? Have you forgotten me?

I...miss you.

I guess with your best friends and father back around you are too busy...

Bloody hell, I might be getting mad, and that never ends well.

Just give me a sign that you're alive.

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( [Private] )

Can I have a vacation?

Lily Chloe Evans Potter, The Potion Maker has entered the Pantheon.

That is all.

Oh! (I lied.) Does anyone have some spare Gillyweed?

I won't tell you why I want it.

[Private to James, Sirius and Remus.]

I've been given such a spectacular job possibility. And NO it doesn't involve anything embarrassing.

Just promise me once I tell you, you won't go off the deep end?

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[Private]

I'm infuriated. Why did Remus ask me to go with him at all?! I wasted time I COULD HAVE BEEN SPENDING with MY HUSBAND listening to those two...flirt? It's really none of my business. I don't care what they do. They're full grown and liable for their own actions.

Still.

I can't...

I haven't seen HIM in AGES and all I got treated with was "Remus is attractive". Tell me something I DIDN'T know! Bloody ridiculous.

And I can bet James is mad at me.

It wasn't even fecking worth it. Forget it. Every time I try, I fail. I give up.

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A moment of immaturity, if you please. Yes, I am allowed them.

Nobody should bother knocking. My door is locked for the time being.

This is for your own safety.